The One That Wants You DEAD

It's been freezing around here for a while. The skies have been beautifully clear, but with that came a bitter cold. This week we returned to something a little more normal. Skies so gray that it was dark by the time I got home yesterday at 4pm and rain. A pretty steady rain fell all day today. I've said it many times before, I love it when the weather changes. The rain is so refreshing.

Driving home from work today in the rain, everything just felt good. I had gotten a little work done on my project at work. I had read a really cool "ebook" that featured a series of neat pages by some inspirational folks. (see here: http://sethgodin.typepad.com/files/what-matters-now-1.pdf )

At home, we had a good night last night with Nolan actually sleeping from bedtime until my alarm went off this morning. We're done with our holiday shopping (and I haven't yet seen the bill so I'm still in ignorant bliss). I've also finished transferring all of my websites from one host to another.

So, I was driving home, and listening to the drumming rain and admiring the mist, and thinking about where I want to go from here and everything seemed so clear.

This evening nothing seems so clear. There's many different things I want to do, and so many I need to do. And my attention is so divided. I can't even concentrate to write out an LJ post.

I really think I just need to sit down, in a quiet room somewhere with nothing but my thoughts and come up with a plan or two. I know I want to work on my project more, and I want to post about the technical aspects online. I know I want to set aside time for friends much more frequently. Hell, who am I kidding, I need set time aside period. I just don't do that now. I know I want to set aside time for date night. I know I want to understand how to be a better, more engaging father. I know that I want to re-revise our budget and really work on cutting down the monthly expenses like yard debris pick-up, insurance, refinance the mortgage, etc.... I know I need to come up with a plan for selling the house, or remodeling, or something.

Right now, I'm going to go try to concentrate on something else, since this isn't working.


PS: this is great: http://syndicated.livejournal.com/xkcd_rss/168039.html?nc=18